20140218 @ Tuesday, February 18, 2014
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In the deep dark corners of my heart, lies a me who is always in deep thought.
I had always have a problem replying to people straight after they asked me something directly, face-to-face.
I get nervous, and would do anything to get out of the situation.
And usually, at those times, I can't think; I can't breathe; I'm scared; I can't think; must escape.
And I ended up shrugging the question off; smiling till the the topic is diverted;
changes the topic; looks away; acts really awkward; make something short up; say my i-don't-knows.
Problem is, this might just make me feel like people look at me
like I am some sort of person without an opinion of her own.
My non-existent self-esteem plummeted.
In all things real, if you would ask me a question at any point of the day
and I would quickly change the topic or do something to distract you,
rest assured that that question would be all i could think of all day long.
Though I might act like I couldn't care less - I do, in fact, an awfully lot more than you think.
I take love seriously, so seriously I wouldn't mind staying single for the rest of my mundane life.
Love isn't a game afterall; and I absolutely hate the ideas of monthsaries.
What I like is the moon - despite all the craters it may bear,
it still appear to me as the most beautiful thing ever.
Someone's whose dark side that I find so endearing, so beautiful
never overbearing, never overwhelming, never irksome.
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- Don't talk rudely--don't don't don't!
- I like nice people--
if you need meh to follow your blog back--ask it nicely and i'll think about it~
